This memorial website was created in
The Memory of my beautiful Daughter
Cynthia Tammy Hernandez who was
Born in California on July 29, 1978 and
Murdered on June 11, 1999 at the age
of 20. She will forever be in our hearts

 

 

This is Cynthia's Uncle Christopher Vasquez who was found dead in his home yesterday. He is my youngest brother, now in heaven with my parents and daughter Cynthia.....

 

 

  Precious Daughter

I Wish I Could See You One More Time
Come Walking Through My Door
But, I Know That Is Impossible
I Will Hear Your Voice No More
I Know You Can Feel My Tears
And You Don’t Want Me To Cry
Yet, My Heart Is Broken
Because I Can’t Understand Why
Someone So Precious Had To Die
I Pray That God Will Give Me Strength
And Somehow Get Me Through
As I Struggle With This Heartache
That Was Caused By Losing You
Who Walked Through Heaven's Gate
on June 11, 1999

 Your resting place I visit
Place flowers there with care
But no one knows the heartache
When I turn and leave you there
A million times I've needed you
A million times I've cried
If love could have saved you
You never would have died
It broke my heart to lose you
But you did not go alone
For part of me went with you
The day God called you home.

Perhaps they are not Stars,
but rather openings in
Heaven where the love
of our lost ones pours
through and shines down
upon us to let us know
they are happy

 

 Whispers from Heaven

When I left this world without you
I know it made you blue
Your tears fell so freely,
I watched; I know it is true.
While you were weeping,
Days after I passed
While all was silent within me,
I saw you kneel to pray.
From this wonderful place called Heaven
Where all my pain is gone.
I send a gentle breeze to whisper,
"My loved ones, please go on"
The peace that I have found here
Goes far beyond compare
No rain, no clouds, no suffering-
Just LOVE from everywhere.
You need not be troubled
Just stay close to GOD in prayer
Someday we'll be reunited
My love, HIS love surrounds you always,
EVERYWHERE!

Your resting place I visit
Place flowers there with care
But no one knows the heartache
When I turn and leave you there
A million times I've needed you
A million times I've cried
If love could have saved you
You never would have died
It broke my heart to lose you
But you did not go alone
For part of me went with you
The day God called you home.

 Memories

If we could have a lifetime with
A dream that would come true,
We'd pray to God with all our hearts
For yesterday and You.
A thousand words can't bring you back
We know because we've tried....
Neither will a thousand tears
We know because we've cried....
You left behind our broken hearts
And happy memories too....
But we never wanted memories
We only wanted You.
~author unknown 

GOD ONLY TOOK MY HAND

Last night while I was trying to sleep,
My daughter’s voice I did hear.
I opened my eyes and looked around
But she did not appear.

She said, "Mom you've got to listen,
You've got to understand,
God didn't take me from you,
He only took my hand.

When I called out in pain that day,
The instant that I died,
He reached down and took my hand,
And pulled me to His side.

He pulled me up and saved me
From the misery and pain.
My body was hurt so badly inside,
I could never be the same.

My search is really over now,
I've found happiness within.
All the answers to my dreams,
And all that might have been.

I love you so and miss you,
And I'll always be nearby.
My body's gone forever,
But my spirit will never die!

And so, you must go on now,
Live one day at a time.
Just understand -
God did not take me from you,
He only took my hand.

 Our children are like the butterflies,
who lands beside us for just a brief moment,
It's beauty and glory are ours and then....
It flies on. And though we wish they could have
stayed with us a little longer, We feel so
lucky to have had them with us, even though
it was only for a short time.

Silent thoughts tears unseen...wishing
your absence was just a dream

GOD ONLY TOOK MY HAND

Last night while I was trying to sleep,
My daughter’s voice I did hear.
I opened my eyes and looked around
But she did not appear.

She said, "Mom you've got to listen,
You've got to understand,
God didn't take me from you,
He only took my hand.

When I called out in pain that day,
The instant that I died,
He reached down and took my hand,
And pulled me to His side.

He pulled me up and saved me
From the misery and pain.
My body was hurt so badly inside,
I could never be the same.

My search is really over now,
I've found happiness within.
All the answers to my dreams,
And all that might have been.

I love you so and miss you,
And I'll always be nearby.
My body's gone forever,
But my spirit will never die!

And so, you must go on now,
Live one day at a time.
Just understand -
God did not take me from you,
He only took my hand.

Each morning when I awake
I know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache
as I try to carry on, my heart
aches with sadness & secret tears
flow. What it meant to lose you
no one will ever know. My thoughts
are always with you, you're place
no one can fill. In life I loved you
dearly, in death I'll love you
forever.

  "A heart of gold stopped beating,
two shining eyes at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove,
He only takes the best."

 

 

   The righteous perish, and no one ponders it in his heart; devout men are taken away, and no one understands that the righteous are taken away to
be spared from evil. Those who walk uprightly
enter into peace; they find rest as they lie in death. Isaiah 57:1-2

Please don’t feel guilty
It was just my time to go.
I see you are still feeling sad,
And the tears just seem to flow.
We all come to earth for our lifetime,
And for some it’s not many years
I don’t want you to keep crying
You are shedding so many tears.
I haven’t really left you
Even though it may seem so.
I have just gone to my heavenly home,
And I’m closer to you than you know.
Just believe that when you say my name
I’m standing next to you,
I know you long to see me,
But there’s nothing I can do.
But I’ll still send you messages
And hope you understand,
That when your time comes to “cross over,”
I’ll be there to take your hand.

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There’s a special angel in heaven 
That is a part of me.
It is not where we wanted her right now,
But where God wanted her to be.
She was here just a moment,
Like a night-time shooting star.
And though she is in heaven,
She isn’t very far.
She touched the hearts of many,
Like only an angel can do.
We would have held her every minute,
If the end we only knew.
So we send this special message,
To heaven up above.
Please take care of our angel,
And send her all our love.

CYNTHIA

IT IS SAD TO WALK THE ROAD ALONE,
INSTEAD OF SIDE BY SIDE.
BUT TO ALL, THERE COMES A MOMENT
WHEN THE WAYS OF LIFE DIVIDE,
YOU GAVE US YEARS OF HAPPINESS
THEN CAME SORROW AND TEARS
BUT, YOU LEFT US BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES
WE WILL TREASURE, THROUGHOUT THE YEARS. 
 

 

 

 

To the living, I am gone
To the sorrowful, I will never
return. To the angry, I was
cheated. To the happy, I am at
peace. To the faithful, I have never
left. I cannot speak, but I can listen.
I cannot be seen but I can be heard.
So as you look in awe at a mighty forest
and its grand majesty, Remember
me. Remember me in your heart, your
thoughts, and your memories. Of the
times we cried, the times we fought,
and the times we laughed. For if
you always think of me, I will never
have gone.  

 

  If You Could See Me Now

If you could see me now
you wouldn't shed a tear.
Though you may not understand
why I'm no longer there.
Remember my spirit
that is the real me
because I'm still very much alive
I've just been set free,
Oh, if you could only see!
I have beheld our Father's face
and I have touched my Saviour's hand.
All of Heaven's angels rejoiced
as I entered the promised land.
Beyond the gates of pearl
I've walked on the golden streets.
I've touched the walls of jasper
and dipped my foot in the crystal sea.
The beauty is beyond words
and nothing could compare,
I've seen your mansion
and someday I'll meet you there.
Let Jesus be your guide
because his word will show you the way!
So please don't cry
because we will meet again someday.

"NOW IN GODS HANDS, FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS" 
 

WORDS OF AN ANGEL
May the angels keep you till morning
May they guide you through the night
May they comfort all your sorrows
May they help you win the fight
May they keep watch on your soul
May they show you better ways
May they guard you while you're sleeping
May they see you through your days
May they show you new hopes
May they still your every doubt
May they calm your every fear
May they hear you when you shout
May the angels keep you til morning
More than this I cannot pray
And if the angels ever fail you
Then may God be there that day

~Author Unknown~    

 

 

 

 Words left Unsaid

Words left Unsaid
I didn't get to say "goodbye",
And all the words I wanted you to hear.
I should have said them when I had my chance,
But I thought that you would always be near.
I ran out of time to let you know, Just how
much you meant to me. I should have told
you, but I thought you knew, But now
I will never know, if you really did see.
When l talk to you in my prayers at night,
I hope you can hear all I have to say.
I would have told you, if only I could,
Have had you back for one more day.
Perhaps there were words you wanted to
say also, That were left unsaid by you.
But I do know that you loved me, As
you knew that I loved you too. We
should always say what we feel in our
heart, As tomorrow may never come.
Speak those words today as you feel them,
And never lose your chance to tell someone 

 

In deepest sleep one night I dreamed that on the beach I walked. God was by my side each step and quietly we talked. Then on the sky my life was flashed; the visions all serene. Two sets of footprints in the sand were there in every scene. But then I noticed in some scenes of suffering, pain and strife...Just a single set of footprints at the worst times of my life. "God...You said you'd stay by me in good times and in bad...Why then did you leave me each time my life was sad?" "My precious child,"God answered, "when your life had pain, I knew. The single set of footprints were the times I carried you"

 

 

 

 

We did not know that morning
What sorrow the day would bring,
The bitter grief and shock severe
To part with one we loved so dear.

You bid no one a last farewell
No chance to say good-bye,
You were gone before we knew it
Only God knows why.

It broke our hearts to lose you
but you did not go alone,
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.

Though your smile is gone forever
And your hands we cannot touch,
We will never lose the memory
Of the one we loved so very much.
Forever loved and remembered

 The Moment that you died
Our hearts split in two The
one side filled with memories
The other died with you.

We often lay awake at night
When the world is fast asleep
And take a walk down memory
lane With tears upon our cheeks

Remembering you is easy We
do it everyday But missing you
is heartache That never goes away

We hold you tightly within our heart
And there you will remain Life has
gone on without you But it never will
be the same

For those who still have their son
or daughter Treat them with tender
care Tell them you love them everyday
You will never know the emptiness
As when you turn and they are not there.

Love you always, CYNTHIA

 

A thousand words can't bring you back
I know because I've tried.
And neither will a million tears
I know because I've cried.
You left behind my broken heart,
and happy memories too.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.
I wish this wish,
as I wish it to come true.

God made you my daughter
Love made you my friend

 

 

No matter how much Faith we have,
we lose people. But we never forget
them. And sometimes its those memories
that give us the strength to go on....

SAFELY HOME

I am home in Heaven, dear ones;
Oh, so happy and so bright!
There is perfect joy and beauty
In this everlasting light.

All the pain and grief is over,
Every restless tossing passed;
I an now at peace forever,
Safely home in Heaven at last.

Did you wonder I so calmly
Trod the valley of the shade?
Oh! But Jesus love illumined
Every dark and fearful glade.

And He came Himself to meet me
In that way so hard to tread;
And with Jesus arm to lean on,
Could I have one doubt or dread?

Then you must not grieve so sorely,
For I love you dearly still:
Try to look beyond earths shadows,
Pray to trust our Fathers Will.

There is work still waiting for you,
So you must not idly stand;
Do it now, while life remaineth
You shall rest in Jesus land.

When that work is all completed,
He will gently call you Home;
Oh, the rapture of that meeting,
Oh, the joy to see you come!

 

Some things I'd like to say
but first of all to let you know
that I arrived okay
I'm writing this from Heaven
where I dwell with God above
where there's no more tears
or sadness there
is just eternal love
Please do not be unhappy
just because I'm out of sight
remember that I'm with you
every morning, noon and night
That day I had to leave you
when my life on Earth was through
God picked me up and hugged me
and He said "I welcome you"
"It's good to have you back again
you were missed while you were gone
as for your dearest family
they'll be here later on"
"I need you here so badly
as part of My big plan
there's so much that we have to do
to help our mortal man"
Then God gave me a list of things
He wished for me to do
and foremost on that list of mine
is to watch and care for you
And I will be beside you
every day and week and year
and when you're sad
I'm standing there
to wipe away the tear

Your time here was shorter
Than we'd wanted it to be,
And every moment you've been
gone, There's emptiness in me.
We thought we'd have a lifetime
That we could share with you.
We hoped & wished for many
things That now will not come
true. But no matter what may
come our way We'll always have
one wish: To tell you, now &
evermore How much you're
loved & missed 


Memory is a way of holding onto the things
you love,The things you are,
The things you never want to lose!"

We walked together, you and I
A Mother and her Daughter
We had Hopes and Dreams for
 tomorrow.....But tomorrow 
didn't come. 
We walked together you and I
We talked, we laughed we loved.
We shared so many happy times,
And for that I thank the Lord above.
We walked together, you and I
But only for a short time.
For all too soon it ended
Leaving pieces of a broken
 heart behind
And even though I miss you
More than words could ever say.
I thank God that I got to walk with you
Every precious moment of every day....

remember you're not going
you are coming here to me
And I will always love you
from that land way up above
Will be in touch again soon

With all of my love & appreciation to all the
 wonderful & precious ladies and friends
 who make all the beautiful graphics 
displayed on Cynthia’s site. With 
much gratitude and love to all, love & 
hugs always Cynthia’s Mom LaRaine 





I didn't have to look into your eyes 
to fall in love with you. I didn't need
to hear your cry to know you loved
me too. I didn't need to hold your hand
to cherish you for always. Within my
womb, we shared our hearts. You touched
my soul. You gave me memories I'll
always hold dear. Yes, my heartaches
since you departed too soon. But a
mother's love does not end with death.
For you are my child. Forever my
love is yours. R.I.P. My baby Girl
Love your Mom 

A loved one that has finished their life on earth
is not dead, there life has just began. They are
still with us in spirit. That you must believe.
*Dont tell me that you understand. Dont tell
me that you know. Dont tell me that I will
survive, How I will surely grow. you made
me laugh, you made me cry, you made me
sit and wonder why. I've cried a thousand
tears for you, Felt a thousand pains.
Screamed a thousand words for you,
Died a thousand days. Memory can tell
us only what we were, In company with those
we loved; It cannot help us find out what
each of us, Alone, must now become I'll lend
you for a little time a child of mine, He said.
"For you to love the while she lives and mourn
when she is dead, "It may be six or seven years,
or twenty, "But will you, till I call her back,
take care of her for me?*









They say there is a reason
They say that time will heal,
But neither time nor reason,
Will change the way we feel,
For no-one knows the heartache,
That lies behind our smiles,
No-one knows how many times,
We have broken down and cried,
We want to tell you something,
So there won't be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of,
But so hard to be without 

On the day God took you
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys? With people all
around me I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide, I thought I
might be dreaming That I'd wake and
find you here, I thought "This can't
be happening." As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again, I wondered
if the pain would end, But mostly, I
wondered when? It's hard to be without
you, At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying, When
there's really nothing wrong. I wish
we'd had more time, Before your
life was done. I hope your resting
peacefully, My precious child. 


THE CORD
We are connected, my child and I,
By an invisible cord Not seen by the eye.
It's not like the cord That connected us til
birth. This cord can't be seen by anyone on
earth. This cord does its work right from
the start. It bonds us together. Attached at
the heart. I know that it's there. Though
no one can see The invisible cord from
my child to me. The strength of this cord,
It's hard to describe, It can't be destroyed.
It can't be denied. It's stronger than any
cord man could create, It with stands the test,
Can hold any weight. And though you
are gone, Though you're not here with me,
The cord is still there, But no one can
see. It pulls at my heart. I am bruised... I am
sore. But this cord is my lifeline as never
before. I am thankful that God connects us
this way. A mother and child. Death can't
take it away
~~ author unknown~~



Don't think of her as gone away 
Her journey has just begun
Life holds so many facets,
this earth is only one.
Just think of her as resting,
from the sorrow and the tears.
In a place of warmth and comfort,
where there are no days and years.
Think how she must be wishing
that we could know today
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away.
And think of her as living
in the hearts of those she touched
for nothing loved is ever lost
& she is loved So Much...  









Too Young To Die
So little you asked for, so much you gave
So many things, you never got to have
So many moments, we never got to share
Too young to die, it’s just not fair
Still so devastated, and angry too
Some days I just cry, that’s all I do
Why did this happen, I still ask why
I’ll never understand, although I’ve tried
Even if your spirit, is here, as they say
It still doesn't take, the heartache away 

 

How does a Mother continue without her child?
She doesn't—She may eat and she may sleep,
She may breathe and even speak,
But she'll never be the same again! 

Somewhere in my dreams I'll
see you standing there.
You look at me with a smile.
"Life isn't always fair"
While there's a heart in me
You'll be a part of me.....







My Beautiful Daughter... 
Always so beautiful,
Always so amazing,
My beautiful daughter,
Forever in my heart! 





 A brief moment of darkness was all
That I knew, before Heaven's Gate
came into my view. Loved ones
and friends I had missed for many
years, welcomed me with open arms
and many happy tears. All the hurt,
fear and pain that I have ever known,
is gone from my life, I am finally home.
I gazed upon the Lord's sweet smiling
face, and for the first time in my life
I knew and felt His grace. I know that you
miss me, but please dry your eyes.
I will always be watching and Loving

I Still Feel Your Love

"Time doesn't heal, it just makes it more real!"
Softly the leaves of memories fall,
Gently we gather and treasure them all,
So dearly loved...So sadly missed!

Forever In My Heart!
A daughter is a wonderful blessing,
A treasure from above, She's
laughter, warmth and special charm,
She's thoughfulness and love A
daughter brings a special joy, That
comes from deep inside, And as
she grows to adulthood, She fills
your heart with pride With every
year that passes, She's more
special than before, Through every
stage, through every age You love
her even more No words can describe,
what it felt like to bury you This was
never meant to happen—Still can't
believe it's true My Precious Daughter
Forever in my heart 

 

If Roses grow in Heaven

If Roses grow in Heaven,
Lord please pick a bunch for
me, Place them in my Daughter's
arms and tell her they're from me.
Tell her I love her and miss her,
and when she turns to smile, place
a kiss upon her cheek and hold
her for awhile. Because remembering
her is easy, I do it every day, but there's
an ache within my heart that will
never go away. 

 

I know you’re gone from this earth
You left me way too soon But I
feel your love every time I gaze
up at the moon. Sometimes I
think I hear A whisper in the wind
It sounds as if you’ve called my
name As your love to me you send.
Sometimes I do a silly thing And
your laughter fills my ears I know
you’re right here with me But I
can’t see you through my tears.
I felt your hand upon my shoulder
And I quickly turned to see Visible...
you were not But I know you’re
here with me. In the night you
sometime come To visit in my
dreams My hands go out to touch
you But you’re just out of reach it
seems. For just a flash you appear
Standing close to me Is it just my
imagination Or is it really you I see.
Even though you’re gone from me
And you watch me from above
I long for you everyday…And I
still feel your love. Written by an
Unknown Author

Wherever you are tonight
Cynthia I'll see you in my
dreams Wherever I go
tomorrow You'll be here
next to me And though we
are a world apart I know
you'll never be that far
'Cause here in my heart
There's a picture of us
Together forever Unfaded
and unbroken Wherever you
are Your love covers me
Forever more you'll be Here
in my heart. 

 

 

Here In My Heart"






You can shed tears that she is gone
or you can smile because she has lived

You can close your eyes
and pray that she'll come back
or you can open your eyes
and see all that she's left

Your heart can be empty
because you can't see her
or you can be full of the loved you shared

You can turn your back on
tomorrow and live yesterday
or you can be happy for
tomorrow because of yesterday

You can remember her and
only that she's gone
or you can cherish her
memory and let it live on

You can cry and close your mind
be empty and turn your back
or you can do what she'd want
smile, open your eyes, love and go on












Here In My Heart

Wherever you are tonight
girl I'll see you in my dreams
Wherever I go tomorrow You'll
be here next to me And though
we are a world apart I know you'll
never be that far 'Cause here in
my heart There's a picture of us
Together forever Unfaded and
unbroken Wherever you are Your
love covers me Forever more
you'll be Here in my heart.








A Message to my Daughter
We walked together, you and I
A Mother and her Daughter
We had Hopes and Dreams for
tomorrow..... But tomorrow
didn't come. We walked together
 you and I We talked, we laughed 
we loved. We shared so many
 happy times, And for that I thank
 the Lord above. We walked together, 
you and I But only for a short time.
For all too soon it ended Leaving 
pieces of a broken heart behind
And even though I miss you
More than words could ever say.
I thank God that I got to walk with
you Every precious moment of
every day.... love, Mommy 

 

No Goodbyes
I am standing right beside you
And I wonder why you cry,
I see such pain and sorrow
I see the hurt that's in your eyes.
Do not wish me back for one last kiss
Please don't wait for me to wake,
Just know how much I love you
I wish no longer your heart to ache.
You need not ever let go of me
Your friend forever I will be,
I'll be always by your side
The tough times together we'll see.
So to my friends I bid you
An oh so great farewell,
Time stands still but for no one
Go and live your lives and tell.
Tell all those that you meet
The old friends and those new,
Although you lost a friend today
You'll get chance to see him soon.
The world knows that I've gone today
But do not mourn for me,
I am happy here just watching
All the world I can now see.
To my family sitting here
And those so far away,
How proud I am of all you do
In each and every way.
I will watch you as you sleep tonight
Be with you all the days,
I’ll be there through the good and bad
My love shall never fade.
Live your life without regrets
And be happy everyday,
For knowing you has made my life
So special in every way.
My time has come to go now
But this is no goodbye,
If you ever need to talk to me
I am always by your side.




Until We Meet Again

Each morning when we awake
we know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on. Our
hearts still ache with sadness
and many tears still flow. What
it meant to lose you, No one
will ever know. Our thoughts
are always with you, your
place no one can fill. In life
we loved you dearly, In death
we love you still. There will
always be a heartache, and often
a silent tear, But always a precious
memory Of the days when you
were here. If tears could make a
staircase, And heartaches make
a lane, We'd walk the path to
heaven And bring you home
again. We hold you close within
our hearts...And There you will
remain, To walk with us throughout
our lives...Until we meet again. Our
family chain is broken now, And nothing
will be the same, But as God calls
us one by one, The chain will
link again. 

Today your life on earth is past but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow but today will always last,
And since each day’s the same way there’s no longing for
the past. You have been so faithful, so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things you knew you
shouldn’t do. But you have been forgiven and now at last
you’re free. So won’t you come and take my hand and share
my life with me? So when tomorrow starts without me, don’t
think we’re far apart, For every time you think of me, I’m
right here, in your heart.


     
   MY CYNTHIA AS A PRECIOUS BABY

    



 CYNTHIA WAS SHOT AND MURDERED ON JUNE 11, 1999

 


    
This ribbon represents a murdered child. Parents Of
Murdered Children (P.O.M.C.) is an organization for
the support of families and friends who are bereaved
by the murder of a loved one. 

      

Mom, please don’t feel guilty 

It was just my time to go.
I see you are still feeling
sad, And the tears just seem
to flow. We all come to earth
for our lifetime, And for some
it’s not many years I don’t want
you to keep crying You are
shedding so many tears. I
haven’t I really left you Even
though it may seem so. I have
just gone to my heavenly home,
And I’m closer to you than you
know. Just believe that when
you say my name I’m standing
next to you, I know you long
to see me, But there’s nothing
I can do. But I’ll still send you
messages And hope you
understand, That when your
time comes to “cross over,”
I’ll be there to take your hand.







~MISSING YOU CYNTHIA~

Time has not eased my pain, it feels so lonely
 without you. Whoever sasid that time  Will 
make it a little easier has not lost a child. 
It has been almost 8 yrs and it feels like A 
lifetime. I remember when you once went
 with your girlfriend Vanessa to Mexico For 
only two day, I missed you so much that 
I went to the store to buy you a Welcome
back card. I was standing their while looking
 at the cards and felt a tap on my shoulder
 so I turned around and it was you. I was so 
happy to see you that we just hugged so
 tight because I know that you missed me as 
much as I missed you. You always had that certain 
smile that made me feel happy nside. You
 were and are still a big part of my life, you will
never be forgotten by me, sister Samantha
 or brother Phillip. We miss you every  single day.
 When you were murdered they took a big part 
of my Heart, now I feel so all alone because 
you use to always make me laugh and make me
happy and also because of the funny things 
you did. Why this person shot you I will 
never understand, not in this lifetime anyway.
 What was he thinking when he shot you!!! 
I often wonder why he did it in the first place,
my days are always filled with sorrow. I’m
 just so upset with how life turned out for you,
 always so happy to just be living Your life and it was
 just taken. What can I say but you left behind a
 brokenhearted Mother who will never
feel like I use to when you were here. You’re 
my Little Angel Cynthia and I know your
 always around me..Just like you always
 were when you were here with me...missing 
you so much and you will forever be in my 
heart.... Love forever
Your Mom LaRaine..... 

IF ROSES GROW IN HEAVEN 

If Roses grow in Heaven
Lord please pick a bunch
for me, Place them in my
Daughter's arms and tell her
they're from me Tell her I love
her and miss her, and when she
turns to smile, place a kiss upon
her cheek and hold her for awhile.
Because remembering her is easy,
I do it every day, but there's an
ache within my heart that will never
go away.

Unknown Author

Beautiful God's Angel
You Are In Heaven With the Living God
Rest In Peace dear Heart 

A Face In The Clouds

I looked towards the clouds
today and for a moment saw
your face And wondered just
where you have gone With a
hope it's a better place Did
you show yourself to me today
To tell me you’re alright? Or
was it just a daydream Playing
tricks upon my sight? Then I
thought of when you left You
did not say a word We never
said "goodbye", but in our
hearts, your goodbye was
heard You have changed our
lives forever Your time here
not in vain And hope you know
we always wanted to Keep
you safe from pain We will
always feel the void inside
Because you are not here
But each new thought you send
our way Let's us know you're
always near So until our journey
nears it's end And we hear the
angels sing We'll face each new
day as it comes And live off the
love you bring ~Author Unknown~ 

Memory is a way of holding onto the things 
you love, The things you are,
The things you never want to lose!" 





I WANT YOU TO KNOW

A brief moment of darkness
was all that I know before
Heaven's Gate came in to
view Loved ones and friends,
I had missed for years welcomed
me Home with open arms and
many happy tears All the Hurt,
Fear, and Pain that I have ever
Known is gone from my life
I am finally Home I gazed upon
the Lord's sweet smiling face,
and for the first time in my life
all that I felt was grace. I know
that you miss me, but please
dry your eyes. I will always be
watching and Loving You from
my Home in the sky A cool
breeze on your face, a touch
of light rain, I will send as a
reminder that we will be reunited
again. Life on earth is but one
brief moment in time I am finally
Home and Eternity is mine.
Author Unknown 

There is a special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted her
but where God wanted her to be.
She was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though she is in Heaven
she isn't very far.
She touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do.
I would've held her every minute
if the end I only knew.
So I send this special message
to the Heavens up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send her all my love 

"Here In My Heart"

Wherever you are tonight Cynthia
I'll see you in my dreams
Wherever I go tomorrow
You'll be here next to me
And though we are a world apart
I know you'll never be that far
Cause here in my heart
There's a picture of us
Together forever
Unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are
Your love covers me
Forever more you'll be
Here in my heart. 

To the living, I am gone

To the sorrowful, I will never
return, To the angry, I was
cheated, but to the happy I
am at peace. And to the faithful
i have never left. I can not speak
but I can listen, I can not be seen
but I can be heard, So as you stand
upon the shore Gazing at the sea
Remember me. As you look at
all the trees. Remember me.
Remember me in your hearts,
In your thoughts And the memories
of all the times we loved. The
times we cried. And the times
we laughed. for if you always
think of me , i will never
have gone.

Author unknown. 



 

 

TO MY SPECIAL DAUGHTER CYNTHIA

IT SEEMS SO LONG AGO THAT I HAVEN’T SEEN
YOU CYNTHIA, EVEN THOUGH YOU WILL FOREVER
BE IN MY HEART, MY HEART BREAKS EVERY SINGLE
DAY KNOWING THAT YOU JUST DIDN’T LEAVE BECAUSE
YOU WANTED TO BUT BECAUSE YOU MET SOMEONE
THAT DIDN’T EVEN THINK OF THE TERRIBLE THING HE
WAS ABOUT TO DO AND THAT WAS TO TAKE YOU AWAY
FROM ME AND YOUR FAMILY. I MISS YOU MORE THEN
WORDS CAN SAY, IT BROKE MY HEART TO LOSE YOU
CYNTHIA BUT YOU DID NOT GO ALONE FOR PART OF
ME WENT WITH YOU THE DAY GOD CALLED YOU HOME.
SOMEDAY HE WILL CALL ME HOME ALSO CYNTHIA AND
THAT WILL BE THE MOST HAPPIEST DAY WHEN I CAN
SEE YOU ONCE AGAIN. YOU LEFT ME MUCH TO SOON,
I DIDN’T GET TO ENJOY YOUR WEDDING, YOUR CHILDREN
YOUR LOVE. EVEN AFTER 8 YRS MY LIFE IS STILL IN
SHAMBLES IT WILL NEVER BE RIGHT IN MY HEART TO
HAVE LOST SUCH A PRECIOUS DAUGHTER. YOU KNOW
YOU WERE THE SUNSHINE IN MY LIFE AND WHEN YOU
USE TO CALL ME “MOM” THAT WAS A JOY TO MY HEART.
I REMEMBER EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU CYNTHIA,
DON’T THINK I HAVE GONE ON WITH MY LIFE BECAUSE
I HAVEN’T, SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO DO WHAT YOU
HAVE TO DO...YOU KNEW ME TOO WELL TO KNOW HOW I
REALLY AM CYNTHIA. I CAN STILL HEAR YOU SAY “MOM”
DON’T GO I DIDN’T GO FAR BUT NOW YOU HAVE GONE
REALLY FAR, BUT IT WILL NEVER BE FAR FROM ME. WHEN
GOD CALLED YOU HOME IN AWAY HE ALSO CALLED ME AND
EVEN THOUGH I’M STILL HERE ON THIS EARTH, MY
HEART IS TRULY IN HEAVEN WITH YOU. GOD KNOWS WHY
I’M STILL HERE, I CAN’T FIGURE IT OUT IN MY OWN MIND
BUT GOD NEVER MAKES MISTAKES. IN HIS TIME I WILL
GLADLY GO WITH HIM TO BE CLOSE TO YOU AND NOW
MOM, HOPE YOU STAY CLOSE TO GRANDMA CYNTHIA, I
MISS HER SO MUCH ALSO, WHEN I FEEL SO ALONE I JUST
WANT TO PICK UP THE PHONE AND TELL MOM JUST HOW
MUCH I’M HURTING BUT INSTEAD I PRAY TO GOD THAT
HE WILL HELP ME THROUGH ALL OF THIS PAIN THAT
I’M GOING THROUGH. JUSTICE WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH
FOR THE ONE WHO TOOK YOU FROM THIS WORLD AND
FROM MY HEART. HE WILL SOMEDAY GO BEFORE THE
LORD AND TELL HIM WHY HE TOOK YOU FROM US, UNTIL
THEN I WILL JUST KEEP GOING ONE DAY AT A TIME AND
LIVE LIKE IT IS MY LAST DAY. WITH MY LOVE FOR YOU
CYNTHIA A LOVE THAT WILL NEVER END. SEE YOU
AT THE CROSSROADS ONE DAY.

YOUR MOM FOREVER UNTIL I SEE YOU!! 

Thank you very much for visiting Cynthia’s Memorial
web site. It has helped our hearts so much to be able to
do this for Cynthia. She was such a special young lady
and loved being with people. She enjoyed life and being
able to give to other’s what she could but most of all she
gave everyone Love. Please take a moment and lite
Cynthia a memorial candle or feel free to leave a tribute.
With my deepest love and a grateful heart for all who
come and visit Cynthia's site. It broke my heart to lose her
but she did not go alone, she took a part of my heart
the day God called her home. 



 







    
The Serenity Prayer
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things
 I cannot change; Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference"
~by Reinhold Niebuhr~




A Kiss

If roses grow in Heaven, Lord pick a bunch from me.
Place them in Cynthia's arms, and tell her their from me.

Tell her that I love her and I miss her. And when she turns
to smile, place a kiss upon her cheek, and hold her for awhile.

Because remembering her is easy, I do it everyday. But
there's an ache inside my heart, That will never go away. 









            









AS YOU HOLD ME CLOSE IN MEMORY,
ALTHOUGH WE ARE APART,
MY SPIRIT WILL LIVE ON,THERE WITHIN YOUR HEART...
I AM WITH YOU ALWAYS.









I Miss You So
Though you are not here
wherever I go or whatever I do
I see your face in my mind
and I miss you so I miss telling
you everything I miss showing
you things I miss your eyes.
I don't like missing you It is
a very cold and lonely feeling
I wish I could see you right now
But since I can't, I will have to be
content just dreaming about when
we'll be together again....














  
   

Until We Meet Again
Each morning when we awake
we know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on.
Our hearts still ache with sadness
and many tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you,
No one will ever know.
Our thoughts are always with you,
your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we love you still.
There will always be a heartache,
and often a silent tear, But always a
precious memory Of the days when
you were here.
If tears could make a staircase,
And heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you home again.
We hold you close within our hearts...
And there you will remain, To walk with us
throughout our lives...Until we meet again.
Our family chain is broken now,
And nothing will be the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

       
I thought of you with love today but
That is nothing new I thought about
you yesterday and days before that
too. I think of you in silence, I often
speak your name All I have are
memories and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake, with
Which I'll never part God has you in
His Keeping; I have you in my heart. 
  
   

Only The Best

A heart of gold stopped beating
two shining eyes at rest
God broke our hearts to prove
He only takes the best.

God knows you had to leave us
But you did not go alone
For part of us went with you
The day he took you home.

To some you are forgotten
to others just part of the past
but to us who loved and lost you
the memory will always last

Anonymous 




Light a Candle

Light a candle for those we mourn.
Into a new life they will be born.
Do not look for them at the gravesite.
They are somewhere else radiating their
beautiful light. They have gone to a new world
where there is no darkness, no pain.
Their light and essence will always remain.
Light a candle for those who have left this mortal
place. They are free to travel through time and space.
When we think of them, they are near. When we
sit in a beautiful garden. Their voices we hear.
When we listen to a divine symphony,
We close our eyes, their faces we see.
Light a candle for they have not really
gone. With each flickering flame, in your
hearts they will always belong. 

Don't say goodbye I will see you later

When I am gone release me let me go
I have many things to see and do You
mustn't tie yourself to me with tears Be 
happy that we had many years I gave 
you my love you can only guess How much 
you gave to me in happiness I thank you 
for the love you each have shown But now 
its time I travel alone So grieve a while for
me in grieve you must Then let your grief be
comforted by trust Its only for a while that 
we must part So bless the memories within 
your heart I won't be far away for life goes on
So if you need me call and I will come Though
you can't see or touch me I'll be near And if 
you listen with your heart you'll hear All my
love around you soft and clear And then when
you must come this way alone I'll greet you 
with a smile and welcome home.
-anonymous 
              


         
Don’t be sad, you are so loved by God that he sent
you this gift to show you how much he loves you"
and although this gift was for a little while you all
know who is waiting in heaven for you. 

  
This written for a vigil for Murdered Children. I wrote
this on June 30, 2001....
In memory of my Daughter Cynthia Tammy Hernandez
Who was murdered on June 11, 1999. Love you Forever
Babygirl!  

We are here in Memory of our loved ones who were
murdered, they left us much to soon and when you lose
your love one to murder, our grief does not stop in one
or two years it's with us forever in our hearts and in
our day to day lives. We go on because we feel that is
what our love one would want us to do, but our lives
are filled with an emptyness that can never be filled,
after we lose our love one to Murder. 

For myself it was the loss of my daughter Cynthia who
was murdered on June 11, 1999, shot by someone who
did not respect life or himself. the fear of God was not
in his heart. Because when you know God, truly know
God he helps you to Love and care for people not
destroy. I miss my daugher, I miss her smile and
laughter, my home is now quite because someone decided
to pull the trigger of a gun and destroy the life of my
daughter Cynthia. She didn't deserve to be murdered
like that, No child should be killed by the hands of
another. Now all I can think of is Cynthia and I ask
myself why? When someone murders he does not realize
the deep impact he puts on the love ones who are effected
by the loss of the person they decide to murder. My heart
broke the day Cynthia was murdered, and it doesn't end
their. It is just the beginning of the Journey of Grief. 

That is what happens when someone decides to pull the
trigger of a gun. I just want to leave you with Love those
who are still here with you, take care of the, be aware of
who their friends are. Kids favorite line is "Don't worry
Mom" I know that was my daughter's Cynthia's favorite
line. But that's what Mother's are suppose to do, worry
because you don't know what's going to happen to your
love one, onece they walk out that door. My daughter's
last words to me were "Mom Don't Worry" and then
she was shot that night. 

 

          

LOVE SONG
The mention of my child's name
may bring tears to my eyes
but it never fails to bring
music to my ears.
If you really are my friend
please, don't keep me
from hearing the beautiful music.
It soothes my broken heart
and fills my soul with love.
"author unknown" 


Don't think of her as gone away
Her Journeys just begun,
life holds so many facets,
this earth is only one.
Just think of her as resting
from the sorrows and the tears,
in a place of warmth and comfort,
where there are no days or years.
Think how she must be wishing
that we could know today
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away.
And think of her as living
in the hearts of those she touched,
for nothing loved is ever lost-
and she was loved so much.
author unknown 










  


On the day God took you
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys??
With people all around me
I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide,
I thought I might be dreaming
That I'd wake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening."
As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again,
I wondered if the pain would end,
But mostly, I wondered when??
It's hard to be without you,
At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying,
When there's really nothing wrong.
I wish we'd had more time,
Before your life was done.
I hope your resting peacefully,
My precious one 



Hear Each Tear Fall On Her Face

My Mom doesn't know I'm watching her
but I'm watching her just the same.
And I hear each tear fall on her face
at the very mention of my name.
She says it sounds like music to her ears
and can be heard over a crowd.
Oh, I hear each tear fall on her face
when my name is said aloud.
I watch her stumble through each day
as she wishes the day would end.
And I hear each tear fall on her face
as she talks of me to her friends.
But there are few who truly understand.
Oh this I've heard her proclaim.
And I hear each tear fall on her face.
Will my Mom ever be the same?
I know that her smile lights up a sky.
But I don't see that smile today.
Oh, but I hear each tear fall on her face.
Her blue skies have turned to gray.
Oh I send to her my warmest hug
with the rays of the morning sun.
Then, I won't hear a tear fall on her face.
For I shall erase them one by one.
Yes, my Mom doesn't know I'm watching
her. But I'm watching her just the same.
And if I hear a tear fall on her face
I'll just softly whisper her name! 









                     
        

             
 
I Still Feel Your Love

I know you’re gone from this
earth You left me way too soon
But I feel your love every time
I gaze up at the moon. Sometimes
I think I hear A whisper in the wind
It sounds as if you’ve called my name
As your love to me you send. Sometimes
I do a silly thing And your laughter
fills my ears I know you’re right here
with me But I can’t see you through
my tears. I felt your hand upon my
shoulder And I quickly turned to see
Visible... you were not But I know
you’re here with me. In the night
you sometime come To visit in my
dreams My hands go out to touch you
But you’re just out of reach it seems.
For just a flash you appear Standing
close to me Is it just my imagination
Or is it really you I see. Even though
you’re gone from me And you watch
me from above I long for you everyday…
And I still feel your love.

Written by an Unknown Author 






          



          

I’m Everywhere

Please don’t mourn for me I’m still here,
though you don’t see I’m right by your
side each night and day
And within your heart I long to stay
My body is gone but I’m always near
I’m everything you feel, see or hear
My spirit is free, but I’ll never depart
As long as you keep me alive in your heart
I’ll never wander out of your sight
I’m the brightest star on a summer night
I’ll never be beyond your reach
I’m the warm moist sand when you’re at the beach
I’m the colorful leaves when fall comes around
And the pure white snow that blankets the ground
I’m the beautiful flowers of which you’re so fond
The clear cool water in a quiet pond
I’m the first bright blossom you’ll see in spring
The first warm raindrop that April will bring
I’m the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine
And you’ll see that the face in the moon is mine
When you start thinking there’s no one to love you
You can talk to me through the Lord above you
I’ll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees
And you’ll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze
I’m the hot salty tears that flow when you weep
And the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep
I’m the smile you see on a baby’s face
Just look for me, I’m everyplace... 






   

Losing a child is one of a parents’ greatest
Fears We want and expect them to be with
us for all our years Our hearts cries out for the
hurt is more than we can bear The Lord knows
the hurt and your sorrow he will share....







If I Knew

If I knew it would be the last
time That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
And pray the Lord your soul to
keep. If I knew it would be the
last time That I see you walk
out the door, I would give you a
hug and kiss And call you back
for one more. If I knew it would
be the last time I'd hear your voice
lifted up in praise, I would video
tape each action and word, So
I could play them back day after
day. If I only knew!!












To the living I am gone
To the sorrowful, I will never return,
To the angry I was cheated.
But to the happy, I am at peace.
And to the faithful, I have never left.
I cannot speak, but I can listen.
I cannot be seen, but I can be heard.
So as you stand upon a shore,
gazing at a beautiful sea,
Remember Me.... Remember Me in
Your heart, in your thoughts, And
the memories of the times we loved,
The times we shared, the times we
laughed, The times we sang.
For if you always think of Me,
I will have never gone.... 





On the day God took you

I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time
went? I asked a lot of why??
with people all around me
I felt alone inside from all
their words of confort, I
could't seem to hide, I
thought I might be dreaming
that I'd wake and find you here,
I thought "this can't be happening".
as I wiped another tear. On the
day that you were laid to rest
my heart broke yet again.
I wondered if the pain will end,
but mostly, I wondered when??
I's hard to be without you,
at times the day seems long,
sometimes I just sit crying
when there is nothing wrong.
I wish I had more time
before your life was done,
I hope your resting peacefully.
My precious one. 




The special bond of
Mother and Child
is written with Love on
their hearts and souls
and makes them a part
of each other
forever. 





















A thousand words can not
bring you back
I know because I've tried
and neither can a million tears
I know because I have cried 

 

If tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not
there to see, If the sun should rise and find your
eyes all filled with tears for me; I wish so much
you wouldn’t cry the way you did today, While
thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me…as much as I love
you, And each time that you think of me, I know
you’ll miss me too; But when tomorrow starts
without me, please try to understand, That an
angel came and called my name and took me by
the hand, And said my place was ready in
heaven far above, And that I’d have to leave
behind all those I dearly love. But as I turned
to walk away, a tear fell from my eye, For all
my life, I’d always thought, I didn’t want to die. 

I had so much to live for, so much left yet to
do, It seemed almost impossible, that I was
leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad, I thought of all
the love we shared and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday just even for a
while, I’d say good-bye and kiss you, and
maybe see you smile. But then I fully realized
that this could never be, For emptiness and
memories would take the place of me. And
when I thought of worldly thing I might miss
come tomorrow, I thought of you, and when I
did my heart was filled with sorrow. But when
I walked through heaven’s gates I felt so much
at home. When God looked down and smiled
and at me from His great golden throne, He
said, “This is eternity and all I’ve promised you..

 

God grant me the serenity to accept the
things I cannot change; Courage to change
the things I can; And wisdom to know
the difference"
~by Reinhold Niebuhr~ 

IF TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME....

If tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears
for me; I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did
today, While thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me…as much as I love you, And
each time that you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name and took me by the
hand, And said my place was ready in heaven far above, And
that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love. But as
I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye, For all my life,
I’d always thought, I didn’t want to die. I had so much to live
for, so much left yet to do, It seemed almost impossible, that
I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays, the good
ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared and all
the fun we had. If I could relive yesterday just even for a
while, I’d say good-bye and kiss you, and maybe see you
smile. But then I fully realized that this could never be, For
emptiness and memories would take the place of me. And
when I thought of worldly thing I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did my heart was filled with
sorrow. But when I walked through heaven’s gates I felt so
much at home. When God looked down and smiled & at me
from His great golden throne, He said, “This is eternity and
all I’ve promised you..Today your life on earth is past but
here life starts anew. I promise no tomorrow but today
will always last, And since each day’s the same way
there’s no longing for the past. You have been so faithful,
so trusting and so true. Though there were times you did
some things you knew you shouldn’t do. But you have been
forgiven and now at last you’re free. So won’t you come and
take my hand and share my life with me? “ So when tomorrow
starts without me, don’t think we’re far apart, For every time
you think of me, I’m right here, in your heart. 












"Life is not measured
by the number of breaths we take,
but by the moments
that take our breath away.... " 

My Daughter's Cynthia's Murder

I wanted to start by how my daughter was murdered, first
of all my daughter is Cynthia Tammy Hernandez, she was
20 yrs old when she was murdered. We were best friends
and she was the type of person that was always worried
about me. If I took to long somewhere she would worry
and I know true love because of her. Our bond together
was so close that at times when she would go out and I
would worry about her all I had to do was think really hard
about her and the phone would ring and it would be her, 
she would ask me "mom" are you thinking about
me because I can feel it, and yes I would be. 

That terrible night on June 11, 1999, that's the only time I
didn't stay up for her, I fell asleep and I never did that
before. When I woke up in the morning I went to her room
where she shared a room with her sister Samamtha, I
opened the door and asked Samantha if Cynthia was their
and she shook her head and said no. I wasn't worried
because Cynthia sometimes would stay over night at a
friends. That day which was a Friday, we went shopping,
Samantha, Cynthia & myself, I remember buying Cynthia
a white little skirt and then buying Samantha a few things
too. Then we went to have our nails done, I mean my nails
because Cynthia was going to work on Monday and didn't
want her nails done because she would mess them up
anyway because of work, so she just had a pedicure.
We laughed and had fun all three of us. When we got
home it was around 1:00 p.m. and she was getting ready
to go to her boyfriends house. The one she only knew for
such a short time, one and a half months. 

I watched as she got ready, she would look up from
putting on her makeup and would smile at me, not knowing
that it would be my last time to ever see her do that. Well
my ex-husband, her dad came by and picked her up
around 4:00 or 5:00 I don't really remember and I had
already going to my room and was watching television,
when Cynthia passed and she just said bye mom. I regret
I didn't even get up to say bye to her. I just shouted be
careful. The next morning as I was telling you, I left with
my sister after I had checked to see if Cynthia was home
and we went to the Swapmeet. We were their but a half
hour when they called our names through the loudspeaker
and asked us to go to the office, as we walked toward the
office I had this terrible feeling and I told my sister, "it's
Cynthia", and she asked why I had said that, I told her
I didn't know and when we got to the office, it was about
my daughter Cynthia. when they handed me the phone
I couldn't even speak, so I gave the phone to my sister, 
she spoke and found out that my daughter had been
shot and had passed away the night before. From that
moment on I went into shock and don't remember too
much. My life has changed forever and will never be
the same. 

I retired from my job where I had been employed for 22 yrs,
I couldn't function at work any longer, I went back to my
job after 19 months off on disability and lasted working for
4 more years because I need to work, I still have my other
daughter Samantha and a son Phillip. It was so hard to
stay working, I will never to through that type of pain as I
did as long as I live. When my daughter died I don't even
know how I have made it this long without her. She was
my youngest, and she was my life. The guy who murdered
her was just someone she had met and was only going
with him for such a short time. I have all of her shoes,
personal things that I will never get rid of or give to anyone,
except maybe her sister. He received a sentence of 19
to life, not enough for someone who destroyed my
daughter's life and my life. Even at work people were
not very senstive to someone who lost a child, unless
you go through it yourself, you will never know. What I
have learned is that people are not the way I thought
they wold ve when someone's child is murdered, they
are not senstive and caring, unless it happens to you. I
took my children to church when they were younger and
taught them to be polite and caring to other's. They were
never rude to anyone, after my daughter's was murdered,
I thought why did I teach them to be so kind, maybe
that's what got her murdered, and yes she did know the
Lord.

They were brought up loving and living for Jesus. My
health is not as strong as it use to be, I can tell I don't
have the same kind of life that I had before my Cynthia
wqs murdered. I don't know what it feels like to live a
normal life, because I never will again. I feel like I just
exsit and go into slow motion everyday. I will never be
happy without her. This is just a little of what I want to
share right now. It's very difficult to even think of Cynthia
not being here, much less writing about what happen
to her. She was a good girl, she was murdered at 20
would have been 21 just a month later. She was so
excited to be turning 21, she was going to go to Las Vegas
with her friends and she never went. She never went
anywhere else but to heaven where God wanted her to
be. To lose someone as dear, unique, sweet, special
and loyal as Cynthia is a tragedy and cannot be
explained by us here on Earth. The thought of
losing her is beyond words, and yet when you
"feel" that she is near, it is comfort. Her radiant
smile and funny personality will surely be missed,
but is being celebrated in Heaven.
Thank you and God Bless you...R.I.P. Cynthia's Mom
LaRaine. 










~I WANT YOU TO KNOW~

A brief moment of darkness
was all that I know
before Heaven's Gate
came in to view
Loved ones and friends,
I had missed for years
welcomed me Home with
open arms and many happy
tears All the Hurt, Fear, and
Pain that I have ever Known
is gone from my life I am
finally Home I gazed upon the
Lord's sweet smiling face,
and for the first time in my life
all that I felt was grace.
I know that you miss me,
but please dry your eyes.
I will always be watching and
Loving you from my Home
in the sky A cool breeze on
your face, a touch of light rain,
I will send as a reminder
that we will be reunited again.
Life on earth is but one
brief moment in time
I am finally Home and
Eternity is mine.

Author Unknown 




~~To our beautiful daughter Cynthia~~

We little knew that morning that
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly In
death we do the same. It broke
our hearts to lose you, you did
not go alone; for a part of us
went with you, the day God called
you home. You left us peaceful
memories, your love is still our
guide, and though we cannot see
you, you are always at our side.
our family chain is broken and nothing
seems the same, but as God calls us
one by one, "THE CHAIN WILL
LINK AGAIN"








To My beautiful Daughter Cynthia
We little knew that morning that
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly In
death we do the same. It broke
our hearts to lose you, you did
not go alone; for a part of us
went with you, the day God