This memorial website was created in
The Memory of my beautiful Daughter
Cynthia Tammy Hernandez who was
Born in California on July 29, 1978 and
Murdered on June 11, 1999 at the age
of 20. She will forever be in our hearts.

 

To the living, I am gone
To the sorrowful, I will never
return. To the angry, I was
cheated. To the happy, I am at
peace. To the faithful, I have never
left. I cannot speak, but I can listen.
I cannot be seen but I can be heard.
So as you look in awe at a mighty forest
and its grand majesty, Remember
me. Remember me in your heart, your
thoughts, and your memories. Of the
times we cried, the times we fought,
and the times we laughed. For if
you always think of me, I will never
have gone.

 

  

WORDS OF AN ANGEL
May the angels keep you till morning
May they guide you through the night
May they comfort all your sorrows
May they help you win the fight
May they keep watch on your soul
May they show you better ways
May they guard you while you're sleeping
May they see you through your days
May they show you new hopes
May they still your every doubt
May they calm your every fear
May they hear you when you shout
May the angels keep you til morning
More than this I cannot pray
And if the angels ever fail you
Then may God be there that day

~Author Unknown~  

  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Words left Unsaid

Words left Unsaid
I didn't get to say "goodbye",
And all the words I wanted you to hear.
I should have said them when I had my chance,
But I thought that you would always be near.
I ran out of time to let you know, Just how
much you meant to me. I should have told
you, but I thought you knew, But now
I will never know, if you really did see.
When l talk to you in my prayers at night,
I hope you can hear all I have to say.
I would have told you, if only I could,
Have had you back for one more day.
Perhaps there were words you wanted to
say also, That were left unsaid by you.
But I do know that you loved me, As
you knew that I loved you too. We
should always say what we feel in our
heart, As tomorrow may never come.
Speak those words today as you feel them,
And never lose your chance to tell someone 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  

We did not know that morning
What sorrow the day would bring,
The bitter grief and shock severe
To part with one we loved so dear.

You bid no one a last farewell
No chance to say good-bye,
You were gone before we knew it
Only God knows why.

It broke our hearts to lose you
but you did not go alone,
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.

Though your smile is gone forever
And your hands we cannot touch,
We will never lose the memory
Of the one we loved so very much.
Forever loved and remembered

 

 

The Moment that you died
Our hearts split in two The
one side filled with memories
The other died with you.

We often lay awake at night
When the world is fast asleep
And take a walk down memory
lane With tears upon our cheeks

Remembering you is easy We
do it everyday But missing you
is heartache That never goes away

We hold you tightly within our heart
And there you will remain Life has
gone on without you But it never will
be the same

For those who still have their son
or daughter Treat them with tender
care Tell them you love them everyday
You will never know the emptiness
As when you turn and they are not there.

Love you always, CYNTHIA

 

A thousand words can't bring you back
I know because I've tried.
And neither will a million tears
I know because I've cried.
You left behind my broken heart,
and happy memories too.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.
I wish this wish,
as I wish it to come true.

 

 
God made you my daughter
Love made you my friend

 

No matter how much Faith we have,
we lose people. But we never forget
them. And sometimes its those memories
that give us the strength to go on....

SAFELY HOME

I am home in Heaven, dear ones;
Oh, so happy and so bright!
There is perfect joy and beauty
In this everlasting light.

All the pain and grief is over,
Every restless tossing passed;
I an now at peace forever,
Safely home in Heaven at last.

Did you wonder I so calmly
Trod the valley of the shade?
Oh! But Jesus love illumined
Every dark and fearful glade.

And He came Himself to meet me
In that way so hard to tread;
And with Jesus arm to lean on,
Could I have one doubt or dread?

Then you must not grieve so sorely,
For I love you dearly still:
Try to look beyond earths shadows,
Pray to trust our Fathers Will.

There is work still waiting for you,
So you must not idly stand;
Do it now, while life remaineth
You shall rest in Jesus land.

When that work is all completed,
He will gently call you Home;
Oh, the rapture of that meeting,
Oh, the joy to see you come!

Some things I'd like to say
but first of all to let you know
that I arrived okay
I'm writing this from Heaven
where I dwell with God above
where there's no more tears
or sadness there
is just eternal love
Please do not be unhappy
just because I'm out of sight
remember that I'm with you
every morning, noon and night
That day I had to leave you
when my life on Earth was through
God picked me up and hugged me
and He said "I welcome you"
"It's good to have you back again
you were missed while you were gone
as for your dearest family
they'll be here later on"
"I need you here so badly
as part of My big plan
there's so much that we have to do
to help our mortal man"
Then God gave me a list of things
He wished for me to do
and foremost on that list of mine
is to watch and care for you
And I will be beside you
every day and week and year
and when you're sad
I'm standing there
to wipe away the tear

Your time here was shorter
Than we'd wanted it to be,
And every moment you've been
gone, There's emptiness in me.
We thought we'd have a lifetime
That we could share with you.
We hoped & wished for many
things That now will not come
true. But no matter what may
come our way We'll always have
one wish: To tell you, now &
evermore How much you're
loved & missed 


Memory is a way of holding onto the things
you love,The things you are,
The things you never want to lose!"

We walked together, you and I
A Mother and her Daughter
We had Hopes and Dreams for
 tomorrow.....But tomorrow 
didn't come. 
We walked together you and I
We talked, we laughed we loved.
We shared so many happy times,
And for that I thank the Lord above.
We walked together, you and I
But only for a short time.
For all too soon it ended
Leaving pieces of a broken
 heart behind
And even though I miss you
More than words could ever say.
I thank God that I got to walk with you
Every precious moment of every day....

remember you're not going
you are coming here to me
And I will always love you
from that land way up above
Will be in touch again soon

With all of my love & appreciation to all the
 wonderful & precious ladies and friends
 who make all the beautiful graphics 
displayed on Cynthia’s site. With 
much gratitude and love to all, love & 
hugs always Cynthia’s Mom LaRaine 





I didn't have to look into your eyes 
to fall in love with you. I didn't need
to hear your cry to know you loved
me too. I didn't need to hold your hand
to cherish you for always. Within my
womb, we shared our hearts. You touched
my soul. You gave me memories I'll
always hold dear. Yes, my heartaches
since you departed too soon. But a
mother's love does not end with death.
For you are my child. Forever my
love is yours. R.I.P. My baby Girl
Love your Mom 

A loved one that has finished their life on earth
is not dead, there life has just began. They are
still with us in spirit. That you must believe.
*Dont tell me that you understand. Dont tell
me that you know. Dont tell me that I will
survive, How I will surely grow. you made
me laugh, you made me cry, you made me
sit and wonder why. I've cried a thousand
tears for you, Felt a thousand pains.
Screamed a thousand words for you,
Died a thousand days. Memory can tell
us only what we were, In company with those
we loved; It cannot help us find out what
each of us, Alone, must now become I'll lend
you for a little time a child of mine, He said.
"For you to love the while she lives and mourn
when she is dead, "It may be six or seven years,
or twenty, "But will you, till I call her back,
take care of her for me?*









They say there is a reason
They say that time will heal,
But neither time nor reason,
Will change the way we feel,
For no-one knows the heartache,
That lies behind our smiles,
No-one knows how many times,
We have broken down and cried,
We want to tell you something,
So there won't be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of,
But so hard to be without 









On the day God took you
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys? With people all
around me I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide, I thought I
might be dreaming That I'd wake and
find you here, I thought "This can't
be happening." As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again, I wondered
if the pain would end, But mostly, I
wondered when? It's hard to be without
you, At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying, When
there's really nothing wrong. I wish
we'd had more time, Before your
life was done. I hope your resting
peacefully, My precious child. 


THE CORD
We are connected, my child and I,
By an invisible cord Not seen by the eye.
It's not like the cord That connected us til
birth. This cord can't be seen by anyone on
earth. This cord does its work right from
the start. It bonds us together. Attached at
the heart. I know that it's there. Though
no one can see The invisible cord from
my child to me. The strength of this cord,
It's hard to describe, It can't be destroyed.
It can't be denied. It's stronger than any
cord man could create, It with stands the test,
Can hold any weight. And though you
are gone, Though you're not here with me,
The cord is still there, But no one can
see. It pulls at my heart. I am bruised... I am
sore. But this cord is my lifeline as never
before. I am thankful that God connects us
this way. A mother and child. Death can't
take it away
~~ author unknown~~



Don't think of her as gone away 
Her journey has just begun
Life holds so many facets,
this earth is only one.
Just think of her as resting,
from the sorrow and the tears.
In a place of warmth and comfort,
where there are no days and years.
Think how she must be wishing
that we could know today
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away.
And think of her as living
in the hearts of those she touched
for nothing loved is ever lost
& she is loved So Much...  









Too Young To Die
So little you asked for, so much you gave
So many things, you never got to have
So many moments, we never got to share
Too young to die, it’s just not fair
Still so devastated, and angry too
Some days I just cry, that’s all I do
Why did this happen, I still ask why
I’ll never understand, although I’ve tried
Even if your spirit, is here, as they say
It still doesn't take, the heartache away 

 

How does a Mother continue without her child?
She doesn't—She may eat and she may sleep,
She may breathe and even speak,
But she'll never be the same again! 




















My Beautiful Daughter... 
Always so beautiful,
Always so amazing,
My beautiful daughter,
Forever in my heart! 





 A brief moment of darkness was all
That I knew, before Heaven's Gate
came into my view. Loved ones
and friends I had missed for many
years, welcomed me with open arms
and many happy tears. All the hurt,
fear and pain that I have ever known,
is gone from my life, I am finally home.
I gazed upon the Lord's sweet smiling
face, and for the first time in my life
I knew and felt His grace. I know that you
miss me, but please dry your eyes.
I will always be watching and Loving

I Still Feel Your Love

I know you’re gone from this earth
You left me way too soon But I
feel your love every time I gaze
up at the moon. Sometimes I
think I hear A whisper in the wind
It sounds as if you’ve called my
name As your love to me you send.
Sometimes I do a silly thing And
your laughter fills my ears I know
you’re right here with me But I
can’t see you through my tears.
I felt your hand upon my shoulder
And I quickly turned to see Visible...
you were not But I know you’re
here with me. In the night you
sometime come To visit in my
dreams My hands go out to touch
you But you’re just out of reach it
seems. For just a flash you appear
Standing close to me Is it just my
imagination Or is it really you I see.
Even though you’re gone from me
And you watch me from above
I long for you everyday…And I
still feel your love. Written by an
Unknown Author 









"Time doesn't heal, it just makes it more real!"
Softly the leaves of memories fall,
Gently we gather and treasure them all,
So dearly loved...So sadly missed!




Forever In My Heart!
A daughter is a wonderful blessing,
A treasure from above, She's
laughter, warmth and special charm,
She's thoughfulness and love A
daughter brings a special joy, That
comes from deep inside, And as
she grows to adulthood, She fills
your heart with pride With every
year that passes, She's more
special than before, Through every
stage, through every age You love
her even more No words can describe,
what it felt like to bury you This was
never meant to happen—Still can't
believe it's true My Precious Daughter
Forever in my heart 



If Roses grow in Heaven

If Roses grow in Heaven,
Lord please pick a bunch for
me, Place them in my Daughter's
arms and tell her they're from me.
Tell her I love her and miss her,
and when she turns to smile, place
a kiss upon her cheek and hold
her for awhile. Because remembering
her is easy, I do it every day, but there's
an ache within my heart that will
never go away. 

Wherever you are tonight
Cynthia I'll see you in my
dreams Wherever I go
tomorrow You'll be here
next to me And though we
are a world apart I know
you'll never be that far
'Cause here in my heart
There's a picture of us
Together forever Unfaded
and unbroken Wherever you
are Your love covers me
Forever more you'll be Here
in my heart. 










 















Until We Meet Again

Each morning when we awake
we know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on. Our
hearts still ache with sadness
and many tears still flow. What
it meant to lose you, No one
will ever know. Our thoughts
are always with you, your
place no one can fill. In life
we loved you dearly, In death
we love you still. There will
always be a heartache, and often
a silent tear, But always a precious
memory Of the days when you
were here. If tears could make a
staircase, And heartaches make
a lane, We'd walk the path to
heaven And bring you home
again. We hold you close within
our hearts...And There you will
remain, To walk with us throughout
our lives...Until we meet again. Our
family chain is broken now, And nothing
will be the same, But as God calls
us one by one, The chain will
link again. 

Here In My Heart"






You can shed tears that she is gone
or you can smile because she has lived

You can close your eyes
and pray that she'll come back
or you can open your eyes
and see all that she's left

Your heart can be empty
because you can't see her
or you can be full of the loved you shared

You can turn your back on
tomorrow and live yesterday
or you can be happy for
tomorrow because of yesterday

You can remember her and
only that she's gone
or you can cherish her
memory and let it live on

You can cry and close your mind
be empty and turn your back
or you can do what she'd want
smile, open your eyes, love and go on












Here In My Heart

Wherever you are tonight
girl I'll see you in my dreams
Wherever I go tomorrow You'll
be here next to me And though
we are a world apart I know you'll
never be that far 'Cause here in
my heart There's a picture of us
Together forever Unfaded and
unbroken Wherever you are Your
love covers me Forever more
you'll be Here in my heart.








A Message to my Daughter
We walked together, you and I
A Mother and her Daughter
We had Hopes and Dreams for
tomorrow..... But tomorrow
didn't come. We walked together
 you and I We talked, we laughed 
we loved. We shared so many
 happy times, And for that I thank
 the Lord above. We walked together, 
you and I But only for a short time.
For all too soon it ended Leaving 
pieces of a broken heart behind
And even though I miss you
More than words could ever say.
I thank God that I got to walk with
you Every precious moment of
every day.... love, Mommy 

Today your life on earth is past but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow but today will always last,
And since each day’s the same way there’s no longing for
the past. You have been so faithful, so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things you knew you
shouldn’t do. But you have been forgiven and now at last
you’re free. So won’t you come and take my hand and share
my life with me? So when tomorrow starts without me, don’t
think we’re far apart, For every time you think of me, I’m
right here, in your heart.


     
   MY CYNTHIA AS A PRECIOUS BABY

    



 CYNTHIA WAS SHOT AND MURDERED ON JUNE 11, 1999

 


    
This ribbon represents a murdered child. Parents Of
Murdered Children (P.O.M.C.) is an organization for
the support of families and friends who are bereaved
by the murder of a loved one. 

      

Mom, please don’t feel guilty 

It was just my time to go.
I see you are still feeling
sad, And the tears just seem
to flow. We all come to earth
for our lifetime, And for some
it’s not many years I don’t want
you to keep crying You are
shedding so many tears. I
haven’t I really left you Even
though it may seem so. I have
just gone to my heavenly home,
And I’m closer to you than you
know. Just believe that when
you say my name I’m standing
next to you, I know you long
to see me, But there’s nothing
I can do. But I’ll still send you
messages And hope you
understand, That when your
time comes to “cross over,”
I’ll be there to take your hand.







~MISSING YOU CYNTHIA~

Time has not eased my pain, it feels so lonely
 without you. Whoever sasid that time  Will 
make it a little easier has not lost a child. 
It has been almost 8 yrs and it feels like A 
lifetime. I remember when you once went
 with your girlfriend Vanessa to Mexico For 
only two day, I missed you so much that 
I went to the store to buy you a Welcome
back card. I was standing their while looking
 at the cards and felt a tap on my shoulder
 so I turned around and it was you. I was so 
happy to see you that we just hugged so
 tight because I know that you missed me as 
much as I missed you. You always had that certain 
smile that made me feel happy nside. You
 were and are still a big part of my life, you will
never be forgotten by me, sister Samantha
 or brother Phillip. We miss you every  single day.
 When you were murdered they took a big part 
of my Heart, now I feel so all alone because 
you use to always make me laugh and make me
happy and also because of the funny things 
you did. Why this person shot you I will 
never understand, not in this lifetime anyway.
 What was he thinking when he shot you!!! 
I often wonder why he did it in the first place,
my days are always filled with sorrow. I’m
 just so upset with how life turned out for you,
 always so happy to just be living Your life and it was
 just taken. What can I say but you left behind a
 brokenhearted Mother who will never
feel like I use to when you were here. You’re 
my Little Angel Cynthia and I know your
 always around me..Just like you always
 were when you were here with me...missing 
you so much and you will forever be in my 
heart.... Love forever
Your Mom LaRaine..... 

IF ROSES GROW IN HEAVEN 

If Roses grow in Heaven
Lord please pick a bunch
for me, Place them in my
Daughter's arms and tell her
they're from me Tell her I love
her and miss her, and when she
turns to smile, place a kiss upon
her cheek and hold her for awhile.
Because remembering her is easy,
I do it every day, but there's an
ache within my heart that will never
go away.

Unknown Author

Beautiful God's Angel
You Are In Heaven With the Living God
Rest In Peace dear Heart 













A Face In The Clouds

I looked towards the clouds
today and for a moment saw
your face And wondered just
where you have gone With a
hope it's a better place Did
you show yourself to me today
To tell me you’re alright? Or
was it just a daydream Playing
tricks upon my sight? Then I
thought of when you left You
did not say a word We never
said "goodbye", but in our
hearts, your goodbye was
heard You have changed our
lives forever Your time here
not in vain And hope you know
we always wanted to Keep
you safe from pain We will
always feel the void inside
Because you are not here
But each new thought you send
our way Let's us know you're
always near So until our journey
nears it's end And we hear the
angels sing We'll face each new
day as it comes And live off the
love you bring ~Author Unknown~ 

Memory is a way of holding onto the things 
you love, The things you are,
The things you never want to lose!" 





I WANT YOU TO KNOW

A brief moment of darkness
was all that I know before
Heaven's Gate came in to
view Loved ones and friends,
I had missed for years welcomed
me Home with open arms and
many happy tears All the Hurt,
Fear, and Pain that I have ever
Known is gone from my life
I am finally Home I gazed upon
the Lord's sweet smiling face,
and for the first time in my life
all that I felt was grace. I know
that you miss me, but please
dry your eyes. I will always be
watching and Loving You from
my Home in the sky A cool
breeze on your face, a touch
of light rain, I will send as a
reminder that we will be reunited
again. Life on earth is but one
brief moment in time I am finally
Home and Eternity is mine.
Author Unknown 




















There is a special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted her
but where God wanted her to be.
She was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though she is in Heaven
she isn't very far.
She touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do.
I would've held her every minute
if the end I only knew.
So I send this special message
to the Heavens up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send her all my love 








"Here In My Heart"

Wherever you are tonight Cynthia
I'll see you in my dreams
Wherever I go tomorrow
You'll be here next to me
And though we are a world apart
I know you'll never be that far
Cause here in my heart
There's a picture of us
Together forever
Unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are
Your love covers me
Forever more you'll be
Here in my heart. 





















To the living, I am gone

To the sorrowful, I will never
return, To the angry, I was
cheated, but to the happy I
am at peace. And to the faithful
i have never left. I can not speak
but I can listen, I can not be seen
but I can be heard, So as you stand
upon the shore Gazing at the sea
Remember me. As you look at
all the trees. Remember me.
Remember me in your hearts,
In your thoughts And the memories
of all the times we loved. The
times we cried. And the times
we laughed. for if you always
think of me , i will never
have gone.

Author unknown. 



 




~~To our beautiful daughter Cynthia~~

We little knew that morning that
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly In
death we do the same. It broke
our hearts to lose you, you did
not go alone; for a part of us
went with you, the day God called
you home. You left us peaceful
memories, your love is still our
guide, and though we cannot see
you, you are always at our side.
our family chain is broken and nothing
seems the same, but as God calls us
one by one, "THE CHAIN WILL
LINK AGAIN"








To My beautiful Daughter Cynthia
We little knew that morning that
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly In
death we do the same. It broke
our hearts to lose you, you did
not go alone; for a part of us
went with you, the day God

 My Daughter's Cynthia's Murder

I wanted to start by how my daughter was murdered, first
of all my daughter is Cynthia Tammy Hernandez, she was
20 yrs old when she was murdered. We were best friends
and she was the type of person that was always worried
about me. If I took to long somewhere she would worry
and I know true love because of her. Our bond together
was so close that at times when she would go out and I
would worry about her all I had to do was think really hard
about her and the phone would ring and it would be her, 
she would ask me "mom" are you thinking about
me because I can feel it, and yes I would be. 

That terrible night on June 11, 1999, that's the only time I
didn't stay up for her, I fell asleep and I never did that
before. When I woke up in the morning I went to her room
where she shared a room with her sister Samamtha, I
opened the door and asked Samantha if Cynthia was their
and she shook her head and said no. I wasn't worried
because Cynthia sometimes would stay over night at a
friends. That day which was a Friday, we went shopping,
Samantha, Cynthia & myself, I remember buying Cynthia
a white little skirt and then buying Samantha a few things
too. Then we went to have our nails done, I mean my nails
because Cynthia was going to work on Monday and didn't
want her nails done because she would mess them up
anyway because of work, so she just had a pedicure.
We laughed and had fun all three of us. When we got
home it was around 1:00 p.m. and she was getting ready
to go to her boyfriends house. The one she only knew for
such a short time, one and a half months. 

I watched as she got ready, she would look up from
putting on her makeup and would smile at me, not knowing
that it would be my last time to ever see her do that. Well
my ex-husband, her dad came by and picked her up
around 4:00 or 5:00 I don't really remember and I had
already going to my room and was watching television,
when Cynthia passed and she just said bye mom. I regret
I didn't even get up to say bye to her. I just shouted be
careful. The next morning as I was telling you, I left with
my sister after I had checked to see if Cynthia was home
and we went to the Swapmeet. We were their but a half
hour when they called our names through the loudspeaker
and asked us to go to the office, as we walked toward the
office I had this terrible feeling and I told my sister, "it's
Cynthia", and she asked why I had said that, I told her
I didn't know and when we got to the office, it was about
my daughter Cynthia. when they handed me the phone
I couldn't even speak, so I gave the phone to my sister, 
she spoke and found out that my daughter had been
shot and had passed away the night before. From that
moment on I went into shock and don't remember too
much. My life has changed forever and will never be
the same. 

I retired from my job where I had been employed for 22 yrs,
I couldn't function at work any longer, I went back to my
job after 19 months off on disability and lasted working for
4 more years because I need to work, I still have my other
daughter Samantha and a son Phillip. It was so hard to
stay working, I will never to through that type of pain as I
did as long as I live. When my daughter died I don't even
know how I have made it this long without her. She was
my youngest, and she was my life. The guy who murdered
her was just someone she had met and was only going
with him for such a short time. I have all of her shoes,
personal things that I will never get rid of or give to anyone,
except maybe her sister. He received a sentence of 19
to life, not enough for someone who destroyed my
daughter's life and my life. Even at work people were
not very senstive to someone who lost a child, unless
you go through it yourself, you will never know. What I
have learned is that people are not the way I thought
they wold ve when someone's child is murdered, they
are not senstive and caring, unless it happens to you. I
took my children to church when they were younger and
taught them to be polite and caring to other's. They were
never rude to anyone, after my daughter's was murdered,
I thought why did I teach them to be so kind, maybe
that's what got her murdered, and yes she did know the
Lord.

They were brought up loving and living for Jesus. My
health is not as strong as it use to be, I can tell I don't
have the same kind of life that I had before my Cynthia
wqs murdered. I don't know what it feels like to live a
normal life, because I never will again. I feel like I just
exsit and go into slow motion everyday. I will never be
happy without her. This is just a little of what I want to
share right now. It's very difficult to even think of Cynthia
not being here, much less writing about what happen
to her. She was a good girl, she was murdered at 20
would have been 21 just a month later. She was so
excited to be turning 21, she was going to go to Las Vegas
with her friends and she never went. She never went
anywhere else but to heaven where God wanted her to
be. To lose someone as dear, unique, sweet, special
and loyal as Cynthia is a tragedy and cannot be
explained by us here on Earth. The thought of
losing her is beyond words, and yet when you
"feel" that she is near, it is comfort. Her radiant
smile and funny personality will surely be missed,
but is being celebrated in Heaven.
Thank you and God Bless you...R.I.P. Cynthia's Mom
LaRaine. 










~I WANT YOU TO KNOW~

A brief moment of darkness
was all that I know
before Heaven's Gate
came in to view
Loved ones and friends,
I had missed for years
welcomed me Home with
open arms and many happy
tears All the Hurt, Fear, and
Pain that I have ever Known
is gone from my life I am
finally Home I gazed upon the
Lord's sweet smiling face,
and for the first time in my life
all that I felt was grace.
I know that you miss me,
but please dry your eyes.
I will always be watching and
Loving you from my Home
in the sky A cool breeze on
your face, a touch of light rain,
I will send as a reminder
that we will be reunited again.
Life on earth is but one
brief moment in time
I am finally Home and
Eternity is mine.

Author Unknown 





























IF TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME....

If tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears
for me; I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did
today, While thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me…as much as I love you, And
each time that you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name and took me by the
hand, And said my place was ready in heaven far above, And
that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love. But as
I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye, For all my life,
I’d always thought, I didn’t want to die. I had so much to live
for, so much left yet to do, It seemed almost impossible, that
I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays, the good
ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared and all
the fun we had. If I could relive yesterday just even for a
while, I’d say good-bye and kiss you, and maybe see you
smile. But then I fully realized that this could never be, For
emptiness and memories would take the place of me. And
when I thought of worldly thing I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did my heart was filled with
sorrow. But when I walked through heaven’s gates I felt so
much at home. When God looked down and smiled & at me
from His great golden throne, He said, “This is eternity and
all I’ve promised you..Today your life on earth is past but
here life starts anew. I promise no tomorrow but today
will always last, And since each day’s the same way
there’s no longing for the past. You have been so faithful,
so trusting and so true. Though there were times you did
some things you knew you shouldn’t do. But you have been
forgiven and now at last you’re free. So won’t you come and
take my hand and share my life with me? “ So when tomorrow
starts without me, don’t think we’re far apart, For every time
you think of me, I’m right here, in your heart. 












"Life is not measured
by the number of breaths we take,
but by the moments
that take our breath away.... " 





TO MY SPECIAL DAUGHTER CYNTHIA

IT SEEMS SO LONG AGO THAT I HAVEN’T SEEN
YOU CYNTHIA, EVEN THOUGH YOU WILL FOREVER
BE IN MY HEART, MY HEART BREAKS EVERY SINGLE
DAY KNOWING THAT YOU JUST DIDN’T LEAVE BECAUSE
YOU WANTED TO BUT BECAUSE YOU MET SOMEONE
THAT DIDN’T EVEN THINK OF THE TERRIBLE THING HE
WAS ABOUT TO DO AND THAT WAS TO TAKE YOU AWAY
FROM ME AND YOUR FAMILY. I MISS YOU MORE THEN
WORDS CAN SAY, IT BROKE MY HEART TO LOSE YOU
CYNTHIA BUT YOU DID NOT GO ALONE FOR PART OF
ME WENT WITH YOU THE DAY GOD CALLED YOU HOME.
SOMEDAY HE WILL CALL ME HOME ALSO CYNTHIA AND
THAT WILL BE THE MOST HAPPIEST DAY WHEN I CAN
SEE YOU ONCE AGAIN. YOU LEFT ME MUCH TO SOON,
I DIDN’T GET TO ENJOY YOUR WEDDING, YOUR CHILDREN
YOUR LOVE. EVEN AFTER 8 YRS MY LIFE IS STILL IN
SHAMBLES IT WILL NEVER BE RIGHT IN MY HEART TO
HAVE LOST SUCH A PRECIOUS DAUGHTER. YOU KNOW
YOU WERE THE SUNSHINE IN MY LIFE AND WHEN YOU
USE TO CALL ME “MOM” THAT WAS A JOY TO MY HEART.
I REMEMBER EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU CYNTHIA,
DON’T THINK I HAVE GONE ON WITH MY LIFE BECAUSE
I HAVEN’T, SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO DO WHAT YOU
HAVE TO DO...YOU KNEW ME TOO WELL TO KNOW HOW I
REALLY AM CYNTHIA. I CAN STILL HEAR YOU SAY “MOM”
DON’T GO I DIDN’T GO FAR BUT NOW YOU HAVE GONE
REALLY FAR, BUT IT WILL NEVER BE FAR FROM ME. WHEN
GOD CALLED YOU HOME IN AWAY HE ALSO CALLED ME AND
EVEN THOUGH I’M STILL HERE ON THIS EARTH, MY
HEART IS TRULY IN HEAVEN WITH YOU. GOD KNOWS WHY
I’M STILL HERE, I CAN’T FIGURE IT OUT IN MY OWN MIND
BUT GOD NEVER MAKES MISTAKES. IN HIS TIME I WILL
GLADLY GO WITH HIM TO BE CLOSE TO YOU AND NOW
MOM, HOPE YOU STAY CLOSE TO GRANDMA CYNTHIA, I
MISS HER SO MUCH ALSO, WHEN I FEEL SO ALONE I JUST
WANT TO PICK UP THE PHONE AND TELL MOM JUST HOW
MUCH I’M HURTING BUT INSTEAD I PRAY TO GOD THAT
HE WILL HELP ME THROUGH ALL OF THIS PAIN THAT
I’M GOING THROUGH. JUSTICE WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH
FOR THE ONE WHO TOOK YOU FROM THIS WORLD AND
FROM MY HEART. HE WILL SOMEDAY GO BEFORE THE
LORD AND TELL HIM WHY HE TOOK YOU FROM US, UNTIL
THEN I WILL JUST KEEP GOING ONE DAY AT A TIME AND
LIVE LIKE IT IS MY LAST DAY. WITH MY LOVE FOR Y